I choose to write about death...
What happens after a person dies... They just go missing from your lives.. u don't see them anymore...u cant talk to them...it's that simple
Erase that one day from my memory when I came to know she was gone... I would think that Qiong still lived in this house... apartment No 110.. all her things r here... her bed, her big soup bowl, her death note stuffed toy.. her pictures ...
I could just assume that she's on a holiday and her cell ph is outta coverage.. she doesnt reply to my mails cus thr is no internet thr...
I can very well go on believing that Qiong is still there somewhr... jus like those few days when she went missing...
everything is okay... until I don't think too much..
Qiong has gone alone to somewhere.... just like she went alone for the coldplay concert.. she chose to be like that... be alone.. talk less.. I never knew these were signs .. I would hav done something..
When it gets too much for you.. u have to get away..to ur peaceful place.. to ur crazy place..anything !
wen all those places are also too much or too little for u.. well then.. like qiong .. u go in search of something totally unknown...
People die when their bodies r tired and failing... I now know that they can also die when their souls are tired..
I am no more mad at u Qiong for making ur mom cry.. for making everyone else cry.. I didn't understand then..
I am no more mad at you for taking ur life.. maybe u were dead long before..
I remember how you told me nothing scares u.. no movie is scary enough, u said..sounding like the world was not enough for you..
I know that you didn't die cus u were terribly sad or terribly scared... maybe u were a lil sad.. a lil bored...
there really is no big reason for what you did.. and maybe for you it wasnt such a big step...
I'll miss u qiong.. riding with you in your red mini cooper.. eating dinner with you in complete silence... watching jeopardy every evening.. watching sweeney todd ..
I am willing to let you go and hope uve found ur happy place at last..
RIP my friend..
