It's hard

Tough times.. trying times.

Times of uncertainty ..of a million unanswered questions.
of tears that need to be swallowed and of fear that cannot be expressed.

Times spent waking alone, being alone and walking alone to doors that were always closed.

Of long sleepless nights and long sunny days so bright that they seem like a lie.

Of forgiveness that doesn't come easy and hearts that don't heal, of a sad kind of wondering.

Times when you hesitate to look up to a star, lest it fills your heart with hope.

Of being asked "why" and not knowing what to say, of sad determined silences.

Times of machine like strength that comes from somewhere unknown, of dreams that somehow do not fade.

Times when the only companion you have, is the person in the mirror.

Candy colored sky

Candy colored sky ..

Were you always there ?

Why do you seem so different today ?

I look at you and wonder why I ever stay indoors.

Something’s new with you today, something’s new with the world.

I feel like I can reach out and touch you.

I feel like even if I don’t know how to say it, you know how I feel.

I wish I had eyes on the top of my head.

I wish I could be one of your million clouds and metamorphose into rain or disappear forever into nothingness.

I am a tiny speck of life and you’re the magical blue surround.

Beautiful and perfect, this world seems like someone’s video game.